A Break from the Bullshit

To put it mildly, I had a pretty rough day yesterday.  The two prominent codependent relationships in my life (my husband and sister Lori) were “alive and kicking”.  And in the blink of an eye, I fell down an emotional slippery slope.  I spent all Saturday afternoon sobbing, like I haven’t done in a while. [...]

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Must Be Nice…

…to have someone who’s sole purpose is to make you happy.  Who takes into heart all your feelings, desires, and whims and makes it their own.  A person to take responsibility for your happiness and who jumps through hurdles to ensure that you arrive at that place.  A problem solver… Your rescue squad… A person [...]

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Bursting the Bubble

It’s no mystery that I’ve been pretty ecstatic about the way things are going with ML.  As far as I know, he’s sober and working his program enthusiastically with a sponsor.  In addition, he’s been in tune with my feelings and has been more compassionate and empathetic then I ever recall him being.  We celebrated [...]

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No One Said It Would Be Easy

Our one year anniversary came and went – an uneventful day.  Not because it passed unnoticed, but because it was not the emotional, dramatic affair I had feared it to be.  Surprisingly, the weekend was wonderfully pleasant!  ML went through the effort to make the day as special as can be for us. Since I [...]

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All Good Things Come to an End

I’m back from my girl’s trip to Paradise and I’m glad to report that I had a fantastic time!  No real drama ( however, of course, we had a few sisterly spats). Just lots of fun, sun, drinks, and dancing. The yucky personal baggage did remain at the door, and it was obvious!  I had [...]

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Be Back Soon…

After several crazy months, Mama is finally going away on vacation!!! My swimsuit is packed and I’m leaving my yucky personal baggage at the door.  I’m so looking forward to the lazy days on the beach with a drink on one hand and a trashy book on the other. In the meantime, please feel free to [...]

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Killing Me Slowly

“Resentment is like taking poison and waiting for the other person to die.” – Malachy McCourt I recently heard this quote for the first time at my S- Anon meeting. I must admit that’s exactly how it feels – the resentment. I’ve been carrying so much of it around for the last several weeks, months, [...]

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Celibacy Over

This weekend marked the end of my almost five month celibacy period.  We were connected and the sparks just started flying. It was beautiful and perfect.  Sex hasn’t felt this right in such a very long time. No pretenses, no expectation, just right. So far, I’m not regretting my decision.  However,  I do have my [...]

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God, Why Her? – Part II

(Click here to read  Part I) After the hidden camera discovery, our “fun” beach getaway was a complete bust.  It was entirely my fault.  I was feeling irritable and crabby, but mostly resentful.  I know it was not Lori’s fault that my husband planted a hidden camera in the shower, but all I kept thinking was: [...]

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God, Why Her? – Part I

I’m going on vacation with my sisters in the next few weeks. I organized the vacation as a gift for my sister, Zoe, who is finally 18 and graduating high school. This will be the first time the “three sisters” go away together on vacation. For the most part, I’ve been looking forward to the [...]

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