Hello Blog World! It’s been a while. Where do I begin? Life has been good. ML and I are adjusting to our new life together. Like any other couple, we have some challenges. But we are finding them easier to tackle together. I know I haven’t been present lately in the “blogosphere”. I think this has a lot to do with an internal shift I’ve been experiencing. Though I still attend my weekly S-Anon meetings and therapy sessions, part of me wanted to focus on other areas in my life. I started a “real life” blog exploring some of my interests that have nothing to do with my S-Anon identity. I took up yoga, which has been a nice addition to my usually non-physical activities. My work situation has changed for the better since my last post and I feel like I can finally breathe again! I celebrated another year surrounded with family and friends. Like my sponsor says: There’s been a lot of “life” going on!
Since the focus has not been on my husband’s program or the other codependent relationships in my life, the veil has lifted in those areas in my “own” life that need improvement. As I type this post, I have an email sitting on my draft pile waiting to be sent. It’s an email that will start the ball rolling on a major positive life change – going back to school. But, I am scared! For the longest time, I delayed the process for many reasons. First, I needed to make a living right out of college. Then, I had my sister to take care of and help with her schooling. Finally, I had the problem of ML’s sex addiction and not being able to focus on anything else. It was one distraction after the next! However, all the exterior noises have quieted down and the timing couldn’t be better, yet I still fear clicking on the send button. Sending that email means that I start focusing on myself , my goals and dreams – something I haven’t done in a very long time. I figured I’d write this post to work up the courage necessary to finally send that email and get the ball rolling on something I’ve wanted to do for a long time. What am I waiting for? It’s time to try defying gravity!
Go get it, girl! I know you can do it!
I’m happy to hear that ‘life’ has been happening and you are feeling more and more confident in it.
I’m right there with you– I’m applying to grad schools and I’m terrified that I won’t get in to the school I want to attend. Nothing to do but try though, right? Believe me, I have enough experience in disappointing myself by holding myself back to not push myself on in this case.
I think that’s called recovery.
XO E! I’ve missed you. Welcome back.
At this point B, I’d be happy to go to any school that will accept me! But first line of business is tackling those scary admissions tests. Ugh! It’s been so long since I’ve taken one of those, I hope my brain is up to the task. It’s nice to be back with friends. I missed you all too. BTW, I received your message – I’ll call you soon
Hey lady! Glad to hear that there are so many good changes in your life.